Wandering and "Wondering" Thoughts

Not sure if it comes with fall, endings to many things, or because we are through with Roy's cancer treatments, or many other "or's and "if's".  This country lady is still enjoying life but seems to be at a stage of rethinking, plotting and planning anew, and redirecting her time, talents and days.  I am thinking this is all okay and a part of life, at least it is for my life right now.  I have been reading books on decisions, directions, and taking note of things I should or want to change in my own life.

My country life and life with my Daisy Mae, foxhound, really is good.  I have enjoyed many outings of "glamping" this season.  I actually went about 12 times and three to four days each time so adding this up, I have been gone camping 36 or more days this season.  I don't go far, but I do have fun, and quiet and rest.  I miss it already since winterizing the camping.  Last night we had to make a fire in our backyard firepit and have  marshmallows.  I am thinking I can do it again tonight.  Chicken soup and homemade deli-style rye bread of dinner, and smores can be our dessert.  Really they can!

Also Roy has gotten good reports from all of his cancer treatments and this is great.  Not all the schedules and running and running and resting and taking him on field trips (drives just to get out of the house on days he was feeling better).  Now he can get on with his stuff and plan and do some things by himself.  Yeah.

Books I am reading are helping me as I admit, I change things around sometimes and just get too too busy.  After no more running for Roy, I decided to join two new groups at church.  Good stuff, but really, I don't like the running and was yelling "yeah" when I could be home more.  New friends from my auction groupie people that we are starting to see at our homes and go out to eat with....Good stuff, but will limit it also.  Wow, I was a workaholic before I was retired and now I must rethink my scheduling as I can become an "overscheduleler.  Not sure that is even a word, but it does sort of fit me right now.

The problem as I see it is that there are so many great things to do and people to do them with and places to go....and that does not even touch on the hobbies or jobs and work around home.

My problem is I like it all.  But this mighty warrior is retired and retired early due to chronic fatigue.  Now you see the problem along with me.  I am an "overdoer" for sure and I think that really is a word.  

So I must rethink, pray, make a list and check it twice, going to find out what is lasting and right.  I will keep all my quilting, knitting, sewing, crafts, writing, painting, embroidery, and I will keep my recipe trying and baking and cooking.  I will keep my house clean and neat.  I will keep my friends, but limit how often I go and do things.  I will keep my one favorite auction with most of my auction groupies at it.  I will go only once a month.  I will attend church, but not all the groups.  I don't believe some of them are even my assignment to be at.  I will keep and attend my book discussion group at the library but will and have already resigned from the Friends of the Library Group as president.  I can belong to it and help at book sales, but not everything they do, as they are not all my assignment either.  I won't help with the church food pantry accept to give food to it.  It is not something I really need to get up early on Saturday morning and do.  

I will not attend the Monday night group but will see how the Bible Study goes to see if I will continue it.  

Good things, but oh, the running is what gets me.  If I want to do my hobbies, clean and bake and cook and read, and rest, and walk and love on my Miss Daisy Mae, foxhound.  .  .  well, I have to be home.  It is known that foxhounds need lots of attention and time spent is good time for both of us.  I could blame my pulling back from things on Daisy.  Yes...well, NO, NO, NO.  I could blame it on being ill.  NO to that also, as I feel wonderful most of the time.  I will blame it on nothing.  I will proclaim that I am retired and plan to enjoy it, doing it the way I am assigned to do it.  

You please go ahead and do yours the way you want and blessings to you.